What a ride!! I keep saying I don't have the words...yet they are still there. I'm just having trouble getting them out some days. Life has been so FULL lately that I am pretty confident saying I've fallen asleep with a smile more in the last month than in many years. THAT is the power of love y'all. What an awesome, amazing, and wondorous feeling. For someone who dislikes change with a ferocious passion, I've made so many lately I don't even know where to begin. Making time for the wild1s, that special someone, and my friends has left my heart and soul so full, I can't help but wonder how it isn't just spilling out of me. Ok, Ok, I'll stop rambling now ;)
The kids are...healthy, happy, and managing. We've had some struggles with outbursts from one which has made things tough. It's so hard raising children. You wonder with every word, decision, and reaction if you are doing the right thing. Only time will tell. I look at Erin and try to reassure myself that I got her to the point she is, I must have done something right. It sure doesn't make things easier in the moment though. It's dealt with on a deep breath, a quick prayer, and hidden tears. Thankfully, the last few outbursts I have had some help dealing with. It's astounding how having a partner in these "battles" can ease a bit of the struggle within myself. There is a momentary reprieve for me that allows me to regroup and readdress the situation. I am hoping with the change in schedule I will be able to get him into some sort of sports function this spring that will give him an outlet for his frustration and also a "reward" for good behavior. I know that my blog followers probably have some very good advice but y'all will have to forgive me for not having the heart to go into the struggles here.
On that note...I made a MAJOR change in work life. I accepted the dayshift secretary position and began as of last Monday. I am now working Monday through Friday from 7am to 3pm. I am NOT a morning person, regardless of what time I wake up, but I am so very happy with the way it went last week that I don't even know how to express it! My sister says I'm not allowed to say I'm now "normal" since it's me we are talking about. All I know is that life has been pretty darn wonderful lately and feeling this way has spilled over into every aspect of my life.
Contentment
Happiness
Love
Blessed
Words that float around within myself. How I wish I could give them to all those in my life!
I'm off to accomplish the things I have planned for the weekend but I want to leave you with something Erin made me think of.
"Never lie, steal, cheat, or drink. But if you must lie, lie in the arms of the one you love. If you must steal, steal away from bad company. If you must cheat, cheat death. And if you must drink, drink in life. Because life isn't the breaths you take but the moments that take your breath away"
I don't know where it comes from...I don't know how badly I butchered it, but I love the message within. There is nothing more quieting to the soul than to lie within the arms of the one you love...unless it is knowing that you are loved. Stealing away from bad company has been slowly accomplished by me over the years and it's like taking rocks out of your pocket one by one until you feel like for once, you're not being weighted down. I've cheated death, in a roundabout sorta way and it gives one a new outlook. I plan to drink it in, always, one delicious sip at a time.
Until the next time...Keep it safe, keep it real, and NEVER forget to say "I love you" to those in your life.
~trish
