Finally, some happy tears....

Most know...the very rough week I've had.  I think it would be cathartic to write out what has been going through my mind, given the situation.  Truth is, I can't make anyone understand how I feel.  Yes, most, if not all, have experienced heartache.  I'm not ready yet to write it out.  Even when I am, it probably won't get posted.  I just know that I have been ABSOLUTELY blessed with the best friends.  I love all of them, my family, and most of all my children.  The unfortunate part of the entire situation is how much my boys are grieving over what happened.  They don't know details, they only know that once again, someone they had grown to like very much has left.  In their eyes at least.  We persevere.  We get up.  We begin again.  I'm NOT ready to begin again, or even get up, right now.  It will happen....y'all just better look out for when that time comes.

My purpose in blogging today...is to share with the world (OK, just my followers, yet that IS my world) the most amazing email I have ever received.  The utter despair on Nic's face when he caught me sobbing again almost broke the pieces of my heart that are left.  I had to reassure him these were HAPPY tears.  Tears that couldn't be restrained.  The following will probably make y'all cry too....I'm willing to share my Kleenex, though I'm still in need so pass em back when you're done.....

~trish

My mom has and always will be the most significant person in my life. Just like Lennie, in Of Mice and Men, I’m clueless to the world. Just like, George does for Lennie, in Of Mice and Men, my mom guides me in the right directions. My mom has always been there for me, through the good times and the bad. She’s always protected me, even if it meant sacrificing things of her own. I want to be just like her someday.

My mom married at a young age to, what appeared to be, a kind hearted man. As the relationship progressed, he became more and more abusive. After a long and hard abusive relationship, my mom gained the courage to take my brothers and I and leave. Just like George took Lennie from the town of Weed for his protection, my mom has always cared about my safety. She has showed this not only in the situation above but in many other ways.

Just like my mom stuck with me through that horrible, abusive, relationship with my step father, she’s stuck with me through everything. I specifically remember the time my doctor, unknowingly at the time, falsely, told me I had a brain tumor. I cried and cried. My mom held me for the longest time and she cried too. That was just the beginning of the horrible weeks that followed. My mom never left my side. She missed so much work, just to stay with me. We made it through test after test, her and I. There’s no way I would’ve been able to get through that period of time, on my own. Even though Of Mice and Men doesn’t go into much detail about Lennie losing his aunt, his only guardian... I can imagine it was hard for him, even at a young age. George has been with Lennie ever since his aunt died. He stuck with him through everything that followed and that’s what my mom did; she stuck with me through it all.

My mom is my role model; I’ve looked up to her for as long as I can remember. How she’s overcome the things she has, I’ll never know. The most baffling thing of all, she’s the strongest person I’ve ever met. Someday, I want to be just like her. I want to overcome obstacles that seem impossible and still come out strong.         

In conclusion, I would be nowhere close to who I am today without the help of my mom. My mom has always been by my side, never leaving it for a second. She’s sacrificed so much for my safety, success and happiness. She’s worked hard for me, cried with me and celebrated with me. She’s my George and I’m her Lennie. She’s everything I hope to be in the future. I don’t know how I’ll make it but I know that however difficult it will be, she’ll be there to push me along. 

(WRITTEN BY: ERIN NICOLE GILLIAM)